Somehow, after a lifetime of sadness, I managed to finally come out happy, at the end of a very long tunnel. After years upon years of feeling that I would never be good enough, that nobody that I loved could possibly ever love me. It's weird to think that I was wrong. I was so wrong. And it's funny, because I never set out to find the love of my life, she just sort of wandered into my life.
I remember those first few days, and even weeks, when we were still getting to know each other. We would text each other back and forth, a lot. Even at that early stage in our friendship, I just loved talking to her. We were just friends. That is all that we set out to do. It may be hard for some people to believe that, but it was all that we were thinking about. I will admit that I started to develop feelings for her pretty quickly, but it started out as just friendship. We had so much in common, and it just seemed like our souls, and our hearts were in tune. I don't know if you have all had that feeling before in your lives, but I did. And I can tell you this, I loved that feeling. I still do. She still gives me that feeling. She still makes me smile.
Now, as we continue on with this year where so much has happened, something pretty big is happening in just a couple of weeks. The woman that I waited my entire life for is moving into a house with me. Oh sure, that could sound scary, but to be honest, I'm really not that worried. I feel a certain sense of calm surrounding the entire situation. Now, I'm not crazy enough to think that there will be no problems. No. I'm sure there will be plenty of them. But for some reason, in my head, I'm focused on the positive things. And they far outweigh any potential negatives. Just the idea of spending more time with her makes me smile.
So, I guess I'm officially moving on to a new phase in my life. But unlike many of the other phases of my life, I'm looking at this one with optimism, and a huge smile on my face. I don't know what the future holds, but I do know that with some hard work, and a lot of love, I will spend the rest of my life with this woman that I absolutely adore. We may have ups, and we may have downs, but at the end of the day, it's the love that matters. And when you love someone as much as I love her, and you would do anything for them, then I have to believe that it will all work out in the end.
Okay, I know that I spent a lot of this post talking about Julia, but the truth is that I want everyone in the world to know how much she means to me. Because as long as everyone else knows, she will know. And I want to make sure she feels special every day, for the rest of her life. I want her to know that there is someone that feels nothing but a deep, and immense love for her. That no matter what her faults may be, she will always be perfect to me.
So, I guess that's all that I have to say for now. I don't know if this post went where I had intended it to, but I needed to pour my heart out. To all of you out there, I hope that some day, if you have not, that you find someone that makes you feel as loved, and as special as she makes me feel. Until next time, have a great day. Toodles.
-Rob.
I remember those first few days, and even weeks, when we were still getting to know each other. We would text each other back and forth, a lot. Even at that early stage in our friendship, I just loved talking to her. We were just friends. That is all that we set out to do. It may be hard for some people to believe that, but it was all that we were thinking about. I will admit that I started to develop feelings for her pretty quickly, but it started out as just friendship. We had so much in common, and it just seemed like our souls, and our hearts were in tune. I don't know if you have all had that feeling before in your lives, but I did. And I can tell you this, I loved that feeling. I still do. She still gives me that feeling. She still makes me smile.
Now, as we continue on with this year where so much has happened, something pretty big is happening in just a couple of weeks. The woman that I waited my entire life for is moving into a house with me. Oh sure, that could sound scary, but to be honest, I'm really not that worried. I feel a certain sense of calm surrounding the entire situation. Now, I'm not crazy enough to think that there will be no problems. No. I'm sure there will be plenty of them. But for some reason, in my head, I'm focused on the positive things. And they far outweigh any potential negatives. Just the idea of spending more time with her makes me smile.
So, I guess I'm officially moving on to a new phase in my life. But unlike many of the other phases of my life, I'm looking at this one with optimism, and a huge smile on my face. I don't know what the future holds, but I do know that with some hard work, and a lot of love, I will spend the rest of my life with this woman that I absolutely adore. We may have ups, and we may have downs, but at the end of the day, it's the love that matters. And when you love someone as much as I love her, and you would do anything for them, then I have to believe that it will all work out in the end.
Okay, I know that I spent a lot of this post talking about Julia, but the truth is that I want everyone in the world to know how much she means to me. Because as long as everyone else knows, she will know. And I want to make sure she feels special every day, for the rest of her life. I want her to know that there is someone that feels nothing but a deep, and immense love for her. That no matter what her faults may be, she will always be perfect to me.
So, I guess that's all that I have to say for now. I don't know if this post went where I had intended it to, but I needed to pour my heart out. To all of you out there, I hope that some day, if you have not, that you find someone that makes you feel as loved, and as special as she makes me feel. Until next time, have a great day. Toodles.
-Rob.
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